Sometimes, I Wonder.

Sometimes I just wonder. Oh, about many, many things. What? Well, for one, I think about other people and what they say. You and your friends obviously converse and other people are brought up in the conversation. Some good things may be said, and bad things are only inevitable. The scary part is putting yourself in the shoes of the person discussed.

Ever think about it?

I think people sometimes forget that they aren't the only ones who talk about people. They get talked about as well.

So why am I even talking about this? No, I did not find out that someone just talked bad about me. I just wondered.

I came across this person's profile on facebook, and I was thinking of some of the things said about this person. And then I thought - wow, this person has no idea that people talk about him/her.

It bothers me . . . a lot.

I know, it's a part of life, but it sucks! I don't want to be hypocritical here - I don't want to come across as not ever doing this. But I do think it is a problem. I just don't know a great solution.

Sometimes, I wonder why I put so much time into something that just isn't logical. Not exactly a thing - I mean, more like a relationship or a hobby or something that I enjoy. Well, okay, so I know why. Because it is important to me. But than that leads me to another question - why is that thing or person important to me? Well, because I enjoy spending time with that person or doing that thing. Which leads me to another question - why do I enjoy it?

Notice the spiral effect? Haha, I feel like a teacher that's doing a pitiful job of whatever it is I'm attempting. But do you see it? See, I was reading this book for my dev psych class called "Why You Do What You Do." This dude had some pretty interesting ideas spinning in his head - nothing I would exactly think, haha. But when it really comes down to it, we all do things or spend time with people because we are happiest when we're with certain people or doing certain things. What really sucks is sometimes you realize that you can't continue with that one thing that you want. Dang.

Sometimes I wonder . . . why do I want something that I know is probably not right - even after there have been enough people, signs, etc. telling me that I shouldn't even want it! Argh, I get so frustrated even thinking about it. Why?! Why would I want something that isn't right?

And sometimes I find it even funnier that while I'm going through something, I am so blind to the obvious answer, but the very moment I get out of whatever it is I'm involved with, the truth is staring me in the face, asking me why I couldn't take my eyes off of what I wanted for one second so I could think clearly!

The irony.

Haha.

Well, I wonder a lot. That's that.

I look forward to a better tomorrow.